Sabtu, 23 Februari 2013

a heap of resolution lists this year

the first thing i really wanted to do when i turned 23 was blogging! i know it sounds real weird, but maybe by writing down things i should (no, Must with big 'M') do, and maybe knowing that people may possibly accidentally randomly click this blog, can definitely drive me to have a strongest commitment to really do those things.

what do those things refer to? 
here's the thing; as a human, i took longer time to talk than to do it and make it happen. i think i have things crossed in mind more frequently than others do. i think i like imagining and thinking more than others do. so those pictures and stuff in mind, were only described by words and a sound come out from my mouth, that's all. i need to do a perfectly significant difference with my hair, is actually only a sentence. it's written either in here or somewhere around twitter, or blackberry messenger in a conversation between me and my friend. 
so, here's the challenge i made in the 14th day of me being 23: BUCKET LISTS TO BE DONE. this is interesting since i hate living a life with a purpose of only sleeping, eating, (working, in my case), repeating, but i need things more challenging and surprising than ever.
with a little help from inspiring article i once read called "40 ways to feel more alive", here i declare my challenges, and start clicking a check on the bucket lists: 

1. learn one more music instrument 
maybe i will choose guitar, or if it's possible, violin. the thing is i really do need to play an instrument more often. piano will do, but i need something different within this year. 

2. write this blog at least 8 times a month 
it's only a blog, i know. but sometimes, in my daydreaming time, i often regret for those stories that are not captured and written when i want to recall it. i know my days wont be that terrific to share, but we'll never know where a learning can hide, especially for other people. and especially for me, i will never know if a little story about life i have been through, can be a grand present to recall for myself in the future. and, lastly, for my baby girl or boy in the future, these are what they should see about their mom. 

3. write a book 
i know this will be a list which i take the longest time to click a check. i don't wanna blame time, but what can a corporate slave blame if it's not a time?. but at least i write 1 chapter per week, and at least, i create a story. those stories in my mind before they run away. 

4. swimming 
i know it's weird, but this is the hardest thing i always want to do. i love to have my body merged with the water, i love to hear nothing when i put down my head deep in the water, i love to flow under the water and when i slowly open my eyes i feel the sun surrender the heat. i know it seems to be the easiest bucket list, but  it just looks like easy.

5. not only listening, go start creating some music instrument 
this one will be heard too much, but don't underestimate me. it is only a way to have fun in life. not for a serious matter. i don't even expect everybody to hear. but thinking to speak my mind up, this is one of the way that works. this is for a human to do, to feel more alive. no?. 

6. put at least two new books on the bookshelf every month
dreaming about having my own money previously equals to dreaming to go to the bookstores and grab those interesting books i want. here i come with some money, so i must make it happen to buy every books i want. 

7. travel to somewhere i haven't visited before at least once per two months 
what else should you do to feel more alive if it's not going somewhere you haven't been before?. no further explanation, noted. 

8. let's get out of this country !
let's see how life can surprise you in the moment you step out of your country. staying in another country has always been one hell of experience. it's exclusive and grand. it changes a life and perspective in a blink. it's a thing i've always been wanting to experience. just let's put it on the bucket lists first this year. just like i wrote in this post, to travel or not to travel, that's a question. 

9. do some voluntary activity 
voluntary work has been my passion since a long time a go. this is the thing i never look again since i move to Jakarta start living as a what-so-called corporate slave. but i realize that the only thing that can make me fulfilled is being successful to transfer something i have for surrounding. that's the value i still put in my heart, but only stays there, and haven't gone anywhere. 

10. contributing in some organizations 
perhaps it will be (still) specifically AIESEC. i don't know if there's any possibilities to do such things in other organizations similar, but now i have a wish to involve in AIESEC in any kind of activities since this organization had successfully shaped and developed me. there should be a contribution back to this organization in a year ahead and continue.

11. learning astronomy 
it will start from ordering a star wheel from amazon, and reach a friend of mine to learn a basic astronomy, and REALLY learn it, not just a piece of that. i know that i said i would always love astronomy the day i was not accepted in ITB, for astronomy major. start to recall it.

12. take a yoga class (or something similar) 
start to live well for the sake of health. besides, isn't yoga class sexy?. i don't really mean yoga anyway, it could be belly or pole dance class, or have any suggestions?.

13. learn one new language 
one language i want to learn the most now is icelandic language. will be more than happy if you guys have some reference of where and how i can learn this language. or else, other languages will do.

14. give a big family big treat 
living far from home (i dont know if bandung-jakarta is considered far) encourages me to make some big family gathering sometimes. it's rare. and, without any special occasions of mine, i will definitely make an invitation !

15. Concerts jumper 
dreams come true to every gigs lover. those bombastic bands are just about to land in the country. there's nothing i can wish again but jumping from one concert to another.

16. a massive change for hair 
for every kind of change. let's see how time can change my appearance.

and the last and the most challenging one....

17. love and commit
i know it's a cheesy kind of wish list, but i declare myself that start from now, i wish to love and commit again. loving someone is not an easy matter. it's about two sides that work, it's about a sincerity, and accepting the imperfection. life starts when we move out of our comfort zone. and it has been comfortable being self-centered, selfish, not accepting fault, perfectionist, not believing in commitment and not having it for a long time, free and wild in living a life. and it's my turn to move out of those comforts and start to create a new comfort by giving more, learning, committing, seeing a future of love in life, believing and accepting someone for his worst and best.


because life should change and we should adjust to live in it.



so, challenges accepted !



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