addiction .

you might depend on something ; its existence may be so significant for you. Nothing you possibly get when you're with this but what called amazing pleasure. this is not the only one main stuff that you cant live without, however you know the situation not always give you this , this is probably restricted of a time ; not all about immortality. there must be a periode when you get it no more.
you feel so 'zero' when you no longer have it as kind of 'daily-use'. the only thing you can feel is just a loss and your all about the perfectly unstabile condition. you realize you're still alive however ; you see your chest moving up and down and you're again to breathe. but you see clearly there's a big - empty hole situated in both your mind and heart - kinda pain - and you understand you're already addicted to this , considerably addicted ; you cant stand having it only twice , you cant see it in a distance.
how could i say ? i am addicted ; i cant stop although i want to.

well it's not about a thing anyway , its about one. .....